ashwin.

was talking to dar ray about friendships earlier and that reminded me of the incredible times i had with ashwin back when we were in taylors ...

i still remember that u were the one who taught me how to play pool
and pretended to play lousily many times to let me win
(though im pretty sure some of those times i really won haha)

i still remember how we used to walk back home from the bus stop every day

i still remember how we used to swap stories about the stupid things we did

i still remember how we used to take phoebe for walks
and that time she chased a beagle away and we had to search all night for it?

i still remember how we used to fight over who gets to sit in the front seat of g's car

i still remember how we used to send random msges to each other in the middle of the night and what a nice surprise it was to find the other person awake too

i still remember how u used to stay up all night to keep me company while i finished last minute assignments

i still remember how u used to cheer me up when i was down and said all the right things at the right times

but i remember too

how coldly i treated u towards the end of the year

how i wasnt there for u when u needed me

how i pushed u away when u tried to reach out to me ...



ashwin, if u're reading this, i'm really sorry for all the mean things i said and did to u. i was childish and selfish and didnt think about ur feelings at all. even though we're friends again now, i still miss those times we used to have and i realise that we can never have that back.

thank you for forgiving me and i hope that we can have many new great memories even though they may be different from the ones we used to have.

rude me

today shaun told me that his mum commented yesterday that i never tell her when i'm leaving. oh no, i hope she doesnt think i'm rude or anything, it's just that i usually leave so late and i dont wanna disturb her in case she's already sleeping or is busy. :(

that's another thing, i'm worried that i'm being rude too by staying so late every day. i shouldnt impose on other ppl so much right and leave earlier. it's just that condo is so lonely and i'm so reluctant to go back. :/ wish i have a dog to keep me company. i dont want just any dog, i want a lab just like the puppy in marley and me!



so cute right!! i want ONEEEEEEEEE! :(!

speaking of puppies, if anyone's interested in adopting one, there's a stray near vini's house that just gave birth to 8 puppies and she's trying to look for wonderful owners for them!

arent they just adorable?! i love the white one with the black face at the bottom of the picture, doesnt he just remind u of Milo in the mask? wish i can take him in but wat am i going to do with him when im in class? :( :(

here's the link if u wanna look at the other pics
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/photo.php?pid=2904636&id=514085663

mcr

finally did my mcr today with dr. ling. it was nice talking to the patient but he was so chatty and i couldn't take a full history from him! it was so bad that when dr ling stopped me, my history was less than half a page long (usually i fill up about one to one and a half page long). i didnt even had the chance to ask him if he has hypertension or diabetes, that's how bad it is.

then i was so worried about my short history that when dr ling asked me to interpret the ecg, i could barely read it properly (probably my lack of sleep contributed to it too). so it went something like this:

dr ling: what do u see in the ecg?

me: the rhythm is irregular

dr ling: so wat's ur diagnosis?

me: supraventricular tachycardia cos the QRS complex is narrow

dr ling: didnt u say the rhythm is irregular?

me: OH! oh no ... um ...

dr ling: take a look at v1

me: *noticed something like a saw-toothed appearance* A. FLUTTER!

dr ling: are u sure it's a flutter?

me: * realised QRS is irregular* NO NO!! it's A. FIB!

can't believe i missed something as easy as a.fib! was so depressed over my lousy performance especially when i saw that dr ling gave me a 14. i hope i remembered to thank him.

after that i went to the cafeteria to grab some breakfast and sat there sulking for an hour until dwayne came along.

dwayne: *glanced at mark sheet* ehh not bad wert

me: wat not bad, it's only 14

dwayne: huh 14..? 6 + 6 + 4 = 16

me: WAT?! lemme see! *grabs paper from dwayne and started laughing*

dwayne: haiyoh, wat kind of person am i living with, cant even count ...


haha can't believe i was depressed over nothing. dr ling was so nice man, he gave me such a high score! :)


told tak yee about it and she said "marry him la!" haha too bad he's already married. :P (i hope daniel doesnt see this or i'm dead. HAHA)

bedside

20/04/2009

during bedside today the tutor wanted to demonstrate how a defibrillator works so he took out the wires attached to a patient's chest leads and hooked him up to the defibrillator machine. after the tutor has finished, he removed the wires from the defibrillator machine and i helped the patient to reconnect the wires attached to his own ecg monitor.

as u can see from my ugly disproportionate drawing (i probably got the positions of the chest leads wrong too), this is how the chest leads look on the patient. anyway when i was fixing back the wires, i was zoning out from lack of sleep the night before worrying about mcr and nearly clipped the wires on the patient's nipple instead! haha they look so similar! luckily wen kai realised what was happening and stopped me in time. haha the worst part is, the patient saw it too and started laughing at me.

when i went back to the ward the next day, the patient was no longer there. he probably got scared of the crazy medical student and left quickly. haha

told the story to ikky and made him promise not to tell anyone but he keeps laughing everytime he meets me, he's such a terrible secret keeper!

a new beginning

hello! how've u been dear readers? bet u're surprised i'm starting to blog again, had a sudden inspiration to do it after watching marley and me. it's a great movie, u should try watching it, owen and jen looked so good together and they have the perfect life i've always dreamed of. haha shaun says i've been watching too many movies.

anyway leave me a comment if u like my posts, i'll try to reply and update whenever i can. that way i know who's been reading my blog. :)

Phoebe

In loving memory of Phoebe Toh (12th October 1999 - 3rd July 2008)


always missed, always loved, always remembered.













we hope u're happy in heaven now baby

love this video!

i wish they'll make the video according to the lyrics.

Mary's Song (Oh My My My)
by Taylor Swift

She said, I was seven and you were nine
I looked at you like the stars that shined
In the sky, the pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
Growing up and falling in love and our mamas smiled
And rolled their eyes and said oh my my my

Take me back to the house in the backyard tree
Said you'd beat me up, you were bigger than me
You never did, you never did
Take me back when our world was one block wide
I dared you to kiss me and ran when you tried
Just two kids, you and I...
Oh my my my my

Well, I was sixteen when suddenly
I wasn't that little girl you used to see
But your eyes still shined like pretty lights
And our daddies used to joke about the two of us
They never believed we'd really fall in love
And our mamas smiled and rolled their eyes
And said oh my my my...

Take me back to the creek beds we turned up
Two A.M. riding in your truck and all I need is you next to me
Take me back to the time we had our very first fight
The slamming of doors instead of kissing goodnight
You stayed outside till the morning light
Oh my my my my

A few years had gone and come around
We were sitting at our favorite spot in town
And you looked at me, got down on one knee

Take me back to the time when we walked down the aisle
Our whole town came and our mamas cried
You said I do and I did too
Take me home where we met so many years before
We'll rock our babies on that very front porch
After all this time, you and I

I'll be eighty-seven; you'll be eighty-nine
I'll still look at you like the stars that shine
In the sky, oh my my my...

where is everyone?!

argh! it's hols! for once i'm free but everybody isnt! well, actually im not that free lah, still have cbp to do and studying to catch up on. i just realised that i've got to cover anatomy of the head and neck and boy, i nearly fainted when i saw the topic. and anatomy and physio of renal sytem. and last year's microbiology. arghhh!

okay i shall stop my depressing thoughts. on a happier note, it is still hols and i dont have to wake up early every morning! i just realised that i havent posted much on my monash friends so i will. :)

since most of my monash friends love taking pictures *coughcamwhorescough* i'll put up only my favourite pics!

ahahaha check out the guys in pink!

group E MED 1011

my nemesis and charge (haha i'm his guardian angel that's why)

wooooo! check out shaun!

ahaha dwayne ambil kesempatan tsk tsk

yay i love this picture!

transition guides 2008! (christina: woman! u should've been here too! :( )

christina, me, hui sze, shazeea

cultural day!

group B 2008!

mae and mei! haha

me and tak yee! she looks damn hot right?

tak yee, dar ray, me, kean guan (eh kean guan isnt sucking in his tummy for once! hahaha oops, dont kill me kg!), hui sze, dwayne

top: tak yee, lih en(aka obese), hui sze, su yi
bottom: natalie, theng wai, christina, me

whoa too many ppl and i dunno all of their names? (aww aiman'll be so sad lilian got cut out of the photo hehe)

looks like some bollywood picture


whoever said that med girls arent hot? :D

yay i love piggy backs!

and last but not least ...

ahahaha i hope he wont kill me for this! haha see, our lecturers are so sporting!

P.S. sorry guys, i didnt put up much pictures from last year cos they're all over the place. most of the pictures i got here are from facebook! :)

watch this!

seriously. it's really funny, i guarantee! haha and really true too!

i miss sam.

i really do, i think my sam year's my favourite school year ever. don't get me wrong, i love my friends at uni too, but uni is just so stressful and i love my sec and primary school friends, but nothing beats college life.

i fought hard to convince my parents to let me go to taylor's, and in the end, it was worth every single tear, sweat and blood. i've never once regretted choosing sam over spore a levels. sure, i wonder sometimes what it would be like to study in vj, but i've never felt sad about giving that up. on the contrary, i'm very glad i did.

anyway this post is dedicated to my sam classmates. :)

on 27th december, we met up for the first time since jas and albert came back from australia! coincidentally, it was albert's (and ginny's) birthday. the plan was that we play futsal for an hour and then we go out for dinner together, where we'll surprise albert with a birthday cake! (oh, ginny couldnt make it, otherwise it would've been a double celebration) sadly, the birthday boy's family had other plans for him so in the end, after our futsal game, the rest of us went to ... *drumroll* asia! (where else?)

the gaylords


HAHAHA classic gaylord's expression!


albert (with jas and the gaylord in the background. isnt jas hot?!)


one of my favourite poses!


seelas koh


all of us who made it that day (minus kwang henz who was taking the picture)


at asia

and on last saturday, we had another gathering. it wasnt easy trying to find a day that everyone's free ... in the end, jas and gaylord couldnt make it also. :( we were supposed to have lunch at tgif but i had a sneaking suspicion that these guys were planning to make me stand on the chair for the infamous tgif birthday celebration! haha luckily i managed to figure it out on time and we had lunch at jack's place instead. took us an hour just to decide where to eat. and that's after we took ages deciding which mewvie to watch (eventually we settled on meet the spartans after jay protested profusely against sweeney todd).

pei pei trying to uncover a mystery




it's time to play guess whose butt!


the twins strike again! pei pei and i just think too alike, don't we?




we were famished by then!

we finished lunch just in time for our mewvie. unfortunately, due to some miscommunication, yun yun wasnt informed about it until well, ten minutes before our show. so yun yun had to rush like a madwoman from subang to sunway pyramid. albert offered to wait for her while the rest of us go in first, but of course we couldnt let him do that. so we waited outside, laughing and talking until we got tired. then i suggested that we leave yun yun's ticket at the counter and tell her to collect it from there. pity i didnt think of that earlier. :/

on the way in,

me: pei pei, what time is it now?
pei pei: it's 1545, we're half an hour late for the show.
me: haha pei pei, u're very funny la. (if u know pei pei, she loves making statements like that so i didnt believe her)
pei pei: really lah, look. *pei pei shows me her watch*
me: *glances at it and accidentally read it as 1520* ahahaha see, it's only ... *looks at time on handphone* SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT it's really 1540!

and we forgot to tell yun yun that her ticket is at the counter too. i wanted to sms her as soon as we were inside but there wasnt any signal. then i tried to tell albert but he couldnt hear me and i figured that if yun yun was there, she'd call one of us. somehow it didnt cross my mind that all of our handphones didnt have signals, i thought it's just one of those temporarily no signal thing that sometimes happen to phones.

about fifteen minutes later, pei pei was like, eh? has yun yun called anyone yet? i shook my head no, then pei pei went out to call yun yun. yun yun's so lucky that pei pei remembered, otherwise she would've missed out on the whole show.

another fifteen minutes later, the mewvie ended.

yun yun: wat?! my seat isn't even warm yet!

haha poor yun yun. poor the rest of us too. sigh. i guess next time we shouldnt just assume that someone has already informed somebody else, it's better to clarify things first.

after the mewvie, albert insisted that we go to haagen daz. when we got there, suddenly all the guys (except for cuz) decided that they needed to go to the toilet. i didnt even suspect anything until albert called cuz to ask the rest of us to go down to secret recipe. but yun yun was like, not nice lah, we've been sitting here for quite a while plus they've already handed us the menu and all. even then i didnt suspect anything. in the meantime, yun yun, pei pei and i were busy camwhoring with cuz's phone and trying to change his wallpaper, when suddenly the guys popped out with a secret recipe cake! i was so surprised and touched at the same time.

pei pei mouse!


yum yum, my first haagen daz in years! (thanks albert and cuz!)


my friends know me so well. or else they're just really good guessers. hahaha




since we didnt get albert a cake, he got to blow the candles out with me! haha so fun, i've never shared a birthday cake with anyone before.




our traditional way of taking out the candles!


my dirty face!




mushy mushy cake! haha it's funny watching the guys cut the cake for once!

the guys (notice that they're all wearing black?)


the girls (yun yun, u odd one out!)

once again guys (and girls), thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! i'm so grateful i have such a lovely bunch of friends! :):) *hugs!*

P.S. i'm sorry i ruined ur idea of surprising me in tgif! (actually i'm not that sorry. :P except for the delicious mudcake maybe. haha)

P.P.S. thanks kwang henz for the pictures! hehe

replies!

hey guys! i'm really sorry my tagboard's been down lately, that's why i havent been replying! anyway, thanks for continuing to visit my blog even though it's pretty dead. haha looks like i'll just have to reply tags here!

pok: haha sorry i have to change songs! have to suit the entry! haha thanks though for sending me that song, i really love it!

yong jie: i cant wait for u to come up! hehe u have my kl no. right? give me a ring or msg me on facebook! my msn's really crappy lately.

raofsie: RAOFSIE! U SUCK TOO! hahaha

helena: yah! how come u went back so fast! =( i didnt even know u're in kl until charlie told me, and before we could meet up, u're back in uk again! =( i miss u! *hugs* take care!

su wen: haha yes of course i remember u! haha sorry la, malas to spam nowadays. i know u miss me. :P haha how come u didnt reply my sms la? i'm so hurt, sniff sniff. haha

shazeea: oh cool, i'll link u back too!

poots: haha yay! thank you poots! i'm so touched by ur support! haha i know u only want discount! haha just kidding! :) phoebe says she'll live long enough to meet dr. khong!

scary gary: haha u're early! haha but thank you! u can have all the teh limau u want. haha

patch adams

i'd finally gotten round to watching patch adams today with su wen (leong) and charlie! it's really inspiring, it reminded me of the reason i wanted to be a doctor in the first place. seriously, before starting med school, i'd always envisioned myself as a doctor like patch adams. of course, i'd never be as great as he is, but i'd always thought that one day i'd like to be a doctor just like him; someone who's a friend to patients, who listens because he wants to and not because it's part of his job, someone who clowns around to cheer them up, and so on. i never wanted to be one of those stiff doctors in their starched collars sitting around just diagnosing patients.

i got this quote from chris's blog and i think it's really lovely - "Patients will not care how much you know, until they know how much you care."

sad to say, after starting med school, (don't get me wrong, i'm not saying that med school is bad. on the contrary, it's very important to help us grow as doctors-to-be) i'd kind of lost that vision. after all the grueling training and endless lessons on how to behave like doctors (not to mention pressure from certain classmates), one cannot help but succumb to conformation. towards the end of last year, i've been so focused on doing everything exactly the way i've been taught to that even showing compassion has been part of a routine rather than something that comes from the heart. i know, i'm ashamed of myself too, but luckily it's not too late for me to realise that now. i guess in order not to end up being a robot, i've got to constantly remind myself of patch adams and his eccentrical, but effective, ways of treating his patients. :)

three cheers to patch adams!


P.S. hah vijay, so there! there's nothing wrong with being excessively happy! it doesnt make me a hypomaniac.